March, 2010

Back here at the office, I just found out that I was given the title of team lead (per se) for our group. I dunno what the job description was but it’s one helluva title and it has a nice ring to it too.

The first order of business, check the team members’ time report. It’s a no brainer actually. All I gotta do is check whether my passionate peers have logged in the necessary 8 hour-work and see if they allocated the time in the corresponding job number. After all is said and done, I’ve completed the necessary paperworks and checked my teams’ status then this reflection struck my mind “it’s good to lead my own team. It feels good to know that they need me, that I am needed and wanted hehehe.” I might actually strive to attain this level if the hunger to have my own team to lead still persists.

I wasn’t feeling that good today but I still insisted to come to office. Just after leaving the house, I was somewhat dizzy and my eye-sight was literally going in circles. When I boarded the bus, I was still feeling sick and it’s a goof thing that I’ve gotten a pretty good seat. When I got of the bus, I almost throw up but it’s a good thing that I have what you can say as “self-control”. I am sure as hell that I wann go home but I kept on telling myself to just ward it off and go to the office so I can attend the training. I’ve forgotten all about my sickness when I was in training. Being in this particular training was very fun for me for I can be my jolly and joker self. There is no one to hog the limelight with. I just wished that this training will last just a little bit more but sigh….

Cellular phones nowadays are a necessity. It has become the extension of our feelings as well as our sense of sight and hearing. We primarily use these little babies to communicate with our friends and loved ones just to check up on things. Tons and tons of new model units from the clashing companies dome out at least once a month boasting of additional features and better performance. With dozens of innovation, the internet had leveled the playing field by having its own sms software. message-media.com offers a free software that imitates the cellular phones’ capabilities. From texting to multimedia messages, this software does it all in a snap. What I like about the site is that it offers a set API that allows one to actually create and customize a messaging software. This is like a linux in the operating system warfare wherein anybody and everybody can create new features. These API cgo well with the new generation platforms like php, java and the likes.

And just for the heck of it, am hoping to get me one of these phones in the near future…

It’s been forever since I last updated this blog and the reason for this is WORK. Yep folks! You read it right!!! Friggin work! I had work ever since but we can’t actually call that working – I just surf the net all day and play my Nintendo DS lite. Now, I am actually required to really, really work my ass off! I was just assigned to a project and I dunno whether I should be happy or sh*t. I am currently not doing much work now as I am getting myself immerse in the process that they do but come next week, all hell will break lose! That means no more surfing the net, no more playtime and definitely rare updates. I wanna go back to being a graphics designer and flash animator because am planning for something next year. I actually have 2 options: a) just suck at what am doing/assigned to. In that way, they will be forced to return me where I came from (which means I can surf the whole day again) or b) excel at my current assignment ensuring my place in this project for at least one year. Right now, option A sounds really, really enticing! I kept praying and asking if what I’m doing is right. I know that graphics is my calling and I don’t wanna waste this god-given talent that I have. I proved that more or less 24 months graphics-less made me rusty. I actually sucked and couldn’t even design a decent wordpress theme! I had already drawn them in paper but it’s different when you actually design them digitally. I need to practice and brush on my skills because I only have 4 months to do this.

PS: the current project had this law to not install or use any messengers (including meebo). Boooooooo!!!!

I made a promise before to someone here at the office that is close to my heart. She was assigned overseas back then for six months while I was doing the usual stuff – bootcamp, surf and petix. I told her before that I might not be here when she comes back but that thing suddenly changed. I don’t know what triggered that event but I ended up saying that I’ll wait for her until she comes back after the six-month duration. I was really petix at the office and all I do all day was chat, surf, DS, read, chat, compose oohh and did I mention chat!? I didn’t really mind this monotonous schedule as I was just wasting my time here waiting for her. But my stay on that petix phase proved to be useful as I discovered a couple of tutorials about adobe, javascript and photography that is being offered here at the office, in a virtual way of course. Time flies sometimes fast but most often slow and I was running out of things to do. Then she told me that her stay there will be extended for another 1 full month and I was like *sad* *cry*. I had to endure the petix state for another 30 days! I managed to ward off the boredom and tried to find ways that might make my stay there worthwhile. Then the seven-month drought finally came to a close and she was finally on her way home, or should I say she is now here.

I kept true to my word and waited for her return but somehow, I stayed here far longer than I can imagine. It’s the month of November now and am still here due to some unknown force. Lorque (one of the people that I look up to here) has now resigned and is no longer part of the company which made me sssoooo sad. She’s the one that I talk to about my performance here at the company and she gives me advice that helped me in more ways than one. She believed in me more than I believed in myself! A lot of people (including nanay Linda, mami tina to name a few) are saying that I have a lot of untapped potentials – that I just don’t have the confidence in my craft. They say that I can be one of the best if I only knew how “good” I am. These are the people that I treasure the most! Those who believed in me and kept on pushing me to be at my very best.

I’d be sad come my last day here at the office because that will be the last time that I will see them. I’m not good at goodbyes so I dunno what will happen. I can still talk to them via messengers but it’s different when you’re in front of them – sharing a couple of laughs, enduring a lot of pain, eating a lot of food, hangin’ out and just chillin. These are the people that I respected the most and became important in my life and they mold me (professionally) in what I am today.

I started my day pretty much the same – wake up at 8:30, have a coffee then take a shower. Eating brunch at 9:30 a.m. then wait for a shuttle bound to office. Today was different though, I wore the gunblade pendant from final fantasy 8 together with the ring. Everything was going fine until I hit traffic in the expressway. I was stuck there for roughly 30-45 minutes. When I paid the fare, the driver told me that they had increased it from the usual. I was like “WTF!”. Oil companies are rolling back their oil prices and they are telling me that they had a price increase!? What the f*ck was that!? In the end, I paid the additional fare and I prayed that we have an accident or mishap or sumthin just to get even on the driver.

I arrived at MRT (train station) roughly on time and I was sure as hell that I won’t be late for office. I boarded the MRT as usual and then we went off when the operator told us that the train in front of us was malfunctioning. We were stuck smack in the middle of the 2 pit stop for roughly 20 minutes. I told myself “this day couldn’t possibly get any worse!”. I was utterly frustrated but I reminded myself of the affirmation that I did in nanay linda’s class. I kept on repeating that affirmation in my head so as not to loose my cool.

Upon arriving at the office, I was late… well, what do you expect!? I was stuck in traffic for more or less an hour. Then I told myself “does the gunblade pendant got a curse or jinx in it?!”. Whatever it is, this had been one helluva day!