Opinion

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If money will not be a problem for us, it is one less thing we can worry about so we can focus on more important things in our lives.

I recently finished a sonnet that I plan on giving to the riadox07 and the title is identical to her pen name. For a little bit of an overview, the riadox07 is a cosplayer and is now a newly registered nurse. This might mean her costripping days are over but am so hoping otherwise. I have always been in awe whenever I see her in a convention jam-packed with literally hundreds of fan(boy) like myself. I first saw her in a photoshoot at a nearby mall and I was captivated by her the first time I saw her. When I heard her voice, it’s as if the angel’s themselves came down to converse with us pitiful human. Everytime I am in a convention, the first cosplayer that I look forward into meeting and having a picture with is the riadox07 – you can say that she’s one of the reasons that I was so into cosplay and conventions.

I am not expecting anything from her since the sonnet is made for her. Once I obtain approval, I will post the sonnet here.

I’ve been seeing LIEZL for the past couple of days and we’ve been talking and texting non-stop (given that she has the credit to text me). Sheer words are not enough to describe the sensation that I feel whenever we talk and especially when I have the pleasure of seeing her. Within a span of days, I learned a lot from her – about her life, the hurdles she went through and is still undergoing, her personality and who she really is. The more I know of her past and present, the more I wanna be her future. I don’t like it when she’s crying and getting hurt. I hate the fact that all I can do is comfort her and say things that will make her feel better. The whole time that we were seeing each other, the more I realized all my faults and all the simple pleasurable things that I continuously ignore.

She said things that almost made me weep if it weren’t for the fact that we were in a public place. A lady as precious as her doesn’t deserve to be treated sh*tty, instead, she deserves only the best! I wanna be the one that holds her hand when she’s troubled, her shield when she’s in pain, her sword when in doubt. I wanna bring her smile back; I wanna be the reason why she smiles.

I found out that there are a lot of things, simple things, that she didn’t had the pleasure of experiencing. By highschool, she was working her ass off just to have some cheese that will go to her tuition fee at school. She sacrificed everything, including her personal indulgence(s) just to help her family. I’ve a one-sided perspective on all people and she was the one that shattered that belief. All her life, she had been working non-stop all for her family. Though having some troubles financially, she still keeps that genuine smile and a positive outlook which made me fell for her even more. Because of her, I changed my ways, my belief and my outlook Because of her, I felt that I have a heart – an emotion capable of caring and loving. Because of her, I was moved and forever changed… for the better.

For two consecutive days now, I’ve been constantly praying and wishing “dear god, please let me be with LIEZL for all eternity. Please, please grant us the elusive “happily ever after” ending. Dear god, with LIEZL by my side, I know I won’t go wrong. She’s my inspiration, she’s the reason why I chose to live. Dear god, I’ve been an ass all my life and I don’t deserve even a single wish much more talk to you but that shows how much I love her. I am willing to risk my dark wings and exposed them to sunlight just for her. Dear god, I hope you can hear me and I guess all I can do is wait for your wonders.”

Note: details for the 2-day escapade will be presented in a more “blow-by-blow” way in a separate entry.

It was her birthday and that was all the reason I needed to put a smile on my face. I had this idea of having some flowers delivered at their office just to surprise her but somebody beat me to it. During lunch, I heard that all too familiar ring from my phone and I pretended that I didn’t heard it. My immediate supervisor and friend picked up the phone and she smiled as she was giving me the handset.

Me: happy birthday dude!! Did you receive the flowers? (though I didn’t really gave her any)
Liezl: wow!! So it was you that gave those flowers!! Thanks! Thanks!
Me: *somewhat astonished* ye.. yeah.. no prob!
Liezl: thank you so much!!
Me: *decided to tell the truth* frankly, I didn’t send any flowers. I was planning to do that but I guess someone beat me to it.
Liezl: hhhmmm.. I wonder who’s it from!?
Me: maybe it’s from your boyfriend… *it’s as if there are swords stabbing my heart as I sez this line*
Liezl: probably…
Me: *sadness befell* so uuhhmmm, it’s already luchbreak so I guess I’ll just call you later… happy birthday!
Liezl: ok. I’ll just call you later.
*I hung up the phone*

After the conversation, I lost my focus to eat and work. A lot of stuff are dancing in my head – mainly a lot of what if’s. I passed most of the on afternoon on either staring at my monitor pretending to work or looking at my notes and doodling some stuff. 4 o’clock came and that familiar ring on the phone was heard. I answered the phone and heard her melodious voice and infectious laugh which are enough to eradicate all my doubts.

Liezl: how’s ya day dude? (she’s fond of calling me dude)
Me: *sarcastic* it’s a bit slow.
Liezl: oohh I see. Nways, I found out who sent the flowers
Me: *utter silence since I have a hunch*
Liezl: it was from my boyfriend. He sent it and surprised me earlier by dropping by here at the office.
Me: *wearing a poker face to hide the hurting* see!? I told you.
Liezl: yup!! I was so surprised!
Me: ne, can we meet later? I think we should go home together since it’s your birthday
Liezl: sure!! I’ll be waiting for you at the bus terminal ok!?
Me: un! I have a gift for you!
Liezl: really!? Ggahhhh! I can’t wait! I have something to give to you too.
Me: ayt! See you after office then

As planned, we met at the designated bus stop. That was the first time that I went to such place and hurdle everything just to see her and be with her even for that short moment. Roughly one hour had passed when she and her friend came to the station. Her explanation was unnecessary to me, what’s important is she was here in front of me. Her friend, who lives within the area, left both of us in the terminal where we waited for the bus for 30 minutes. To pass the time, I pulled my trusty Ipod to listen to some good music but as soon as she saw mo grooving, she immediately pulled the earphones. At about 9:30, we boarded the bus and picked a good seat where it can be both of us because we tend to have our own world when it’s just the two of us. While waiting for the bus to depart, she pulled something from her bag and gave it to me. It was some sort of cookies and peanut butter so we can have a bite while waiting for the bus to go. She again, reached her bag and pulled something out of it. It was a necklace – her gift to me which she bought when she was in some province. As we traverse the expressway, I gave to her my birthday gift. It was a half-torn paper with a lot of creases, it had been obviously in my bag for quite a while. I reached out and gave her the poems that I specially composed for her. She asked for me to read it aloud, I hesitated but I gave-in in the end. I read the poem for her as heartfelt, as sincere and as best as I can because these few lines hold all the emotions, all the feelings that I have for her. After I was done reading, tears were slowly forming in her eyes and she gave me a hug for that wonderful gift….

- To be continued -

I’ve just finished another layout (which is still yet to be digitized) themed ala barkada trip. This was conceptualized last year but never did I found the time to actually do the layout. I’ve already drawn 5 original characters which are the comic representation of my pose. I even drew a somewhat of a mascot but I didn’t include it in the layout since I thought that it was pointless having it there. Hopefully I can have it digitized immediately because I know for a fact that this layout will chomp majority of my time since I have to actually create the characters in photoshop using my mouse (I’ve no pen tablet T__T). plus the fact that I’ve to think some nifty transition effects in flash. I am having doubts whether to embed some sounds but it will most definitely increase the effect that I wanna achieve.

Note: This idea was inspired by a strip in a local tv show here entitled barkada trip

A paranoia slithered in when we met just last Sunday in a nearby grocery store. As usual, we had a fun time and she did all the talking (which is one of the traits that I love about her) whilst we shop for the things that she’ll need for dinner. After all the back-and-forth-mode of shopping, we decided to went home but not before grabbing a bite. She told me that she’d been craving for food as of late so we bought a couple of doughnuts. When she noticed the wide array of foods on the stalls, she was dismay at her decision to buy the doughnuts. As we eat, she mentioned about a pregnancy thing. I first took it as a joke as I know that she’s the type that won’t and couldn’t do it. Not because she CAN’T but because she knows better than getting laid and getting pregnant. She’s the type that thinks of others first rather than herself. She told me that even her closest of friends didn’t believe her when she brought up the topic. And I doubt that her ex-boyfriend could even get to second base! But the shock came to me when she pulled out a pregnancy test device thingy from her pocket. She told me that it was negative (meaning she ain’t pregnant) since it had only one line (don’t ask me, I myself don’t even know what that means). At the back of my mind, I was like ”thank goodness!!!!”. She told me that either she might have done it the wrong way or she’s just paranoid. The fact that she thinks that she’s pregnant caused so much stress, distraught, unrest and uneasiness for me. Good thing I was wearing my shades that day or she might have noticed. Until now, it’s still on my mind. Am asking myself “what if she is indeed pregnant?! What will you do!?”. I am refusing to entertain the thought and I always sez to myself to “just keep the faith!”. These few words alone had saved me from my useless assumptions on a couple of occasions before and it greatly helped me clear my mind. But somehow, this time, the balance between that phrase and the word “pregnant” is slowly tilting on the favor of the latter. This is very much new to me. I mean, having a boyfriend, I can take but when you sez you’re pregnant, that is just beyond what I can comprehend. I can’t sleep at night like I used to because of that incident. This is my paranoia. This is what keeps me awake at night. And this is the thing that I need to confirm with her… even though I may not be ready on what I will hear from her.

Gggaahhh!! It’s been forever since I last posted about her… about us. There had been a lot of things going on for the past couple of weeks. Well for one thing, we talk a lot nowadays which gave me more time to learn more about her. There had been a lot of revelations that caught me off guard that I won’t mention here since I promised her that it’s just between the two of us. God knows that I have a smile tattooed on my face each and every day just because of her. When we talked, I dunno what will happen on the rest of the day which is the most exciting part! We both like spontaneity and we never believed in planning since it won’t ultimately materialize. After office, when we are together, I dunno what will happen on the rest of the night and I am clueless as to how the night will end. Almost every week now, we are together – just hanging-out on some places that I haven’t even been. You could say that I am the tourist and she’s my tour guide. After a fun-filled night and countless hours of conversation, when we head on to our respective home, the night won’t end without us sending a few sms to one another just to check on things and bid good night. You maybe wondering, “If you’re on cloud nine now, what’s with the title?”. Well simply put, there’s always the flip-side of the coin.

She told me a good news that made my heart thump. I sooo wanted to hear those words from her ever since her break-up but there’s this thing that kept holding me back to profess my love to her. Well actually, there’s nothing more to confess since I already did that before. I guess what am trying to say is that am still hesitant to tell her my motive – to have a deeper relationship than what we have now. That was what I wanted to do before but I held back since she was in a relationship back then. Now she’s free but am still hesitant… why?! Simply because, she’s still in the healing process. I don’t wanna put pressure on her and I don’t wanna be a rebound. If it will be us, I wanna be the reason why she wanna smile blah, blah, blah… I think I mentioned that on my previous post ^_^… I just don’t wanna be the replacement, I wanna be the new found love. This is my struggle. Though we haven’t any spoken words of agreement, I am giving her all of my time, all my support and all the effort that I can imagine in order to make her feel happy and secure. This is what I call unconditional love.

I was told by a friend that smartbro internet service provider (which we’re both using) is having some glitches lately. I told him that my bro (as I termed it) was working perfectly. He told me that some sites that he visits were unable to load properly or the session has timed out. I didn’t believed him since it has yet to happen to me… until earlier. I was surfing, as usual, when I visited my site (www.middlepower.org) to check up on things when this weird thing happened – I can’t seem to open my site and the page always times out. I told this instance to my friend and he told me that that is a sign that bro is malfunctioning. I was skeptical at first since I can surf most of the sites that I usually visit. I asked him to check the site and he told me that it was working perfectly! He suggested to use a proxy site to access my website.

Bottomline is this – if this thing keeps on happening on a frequent basis, I will not be getting my money’s worth! I am paying a lot of cheese for this so called wireless internet and yet their facilities are crappy. Had I only an alternative, I wouldn’t even think of getting close to bro since there had been a lot of complaints. What’s worst is that I might miss out a lot of job opportunities! Nnnnnooooo!!!!

Curse you bro!!! ayusin nyo ang pamumuhay mo ah!!!!

I was never fascinated by those two-wheeled scooters as a main means of transportation. The death/accident rate involving those scooters are shooting up the charts. We blame either of 2 people: 1) the man behind the scooter or 2) the man that crashed in the scooter. But either way the accident rate mustn’t be overlooked. If you are a fan of 2 wheels though, I’d suggest to get those big bad-ass bikes. You know like the ones that the undertaker (wwe) drove before when he was imposing his bad-ass look. I think there’s a movie of this one too. These Harleys will never topple come collision. These are the 400cc type of bikes (I personally dunno what that means but the bike is huge!). These are the bikes that are allowed almost anywhere (including the expressway) and on any terrain. Top that with the fact the you look so cool while riding one of these babies. Now if you have your own harley, maybe you should check on this and find some Harley chrome kits to equipped that ride with a nasty roar!

Before the day begins, the instructor encouraged us to say out loud the affirmation that we wrote yesterday. And so it is! After which, to get our blood pumpin, we played a game wherein the participants will group themselves into three and think of a name as well as a dance number.

Time for the lesson proper – first up, organization and structure. Today we learned how to properly construct an English statement beginning with the core details followed by the supporting ones and the conclusion for that specific statement. We also learned about transition statements, which are essential for telling how one action is connected with another. The next (and final lesson for the day) was accent neutralization. Because every employee at the company was from different region, there tend to be some regional accent. This was the goal for this module – to minimize and ultimately eradicate the regional accent. We were given some tips on how to eliminate the regional accent as well as a couple of pointers in the areas of phrasing a statement.

The second day was fun because everybody (including me) let their guard down. Everyone was just having fun, being jolly and learning in the process. Without a care in the world, we were becoming a family… at least for this training session

As usual, I came late today… but only for a couple of minutes.